See, right now, I want nothing more than to be with him. A couple of weeks ago, during one of our fights, I told him that: the only guy I want right now is being an asshole. I mean, really, if someone threw you a line like that (just disregard the last four words)— wouldn’t that appease you? Make you feel all giddy inside?
It apparently doesn’t work for him. From my POV, “guy I want” were the operative words in that sentence. From his POV, it was “right now”. Meaning I could change my mind and run off with someone else in the next twenty seconds.
I digress. Like I said, I want nothing more than to be with him. Waking up beisde him; getting up to sit on his tummy and telling him I’m hungry and we should go get some food; running my hands through his hair to put him to sleep; my head on his bicep; my teeth on his shoulder; him growling and flashing his braces because I find it cute; the way his says “puh-puh-please“; his picking up my habit of keeping empty cans, cups and Yakult bottles in my fridge. Blah blah blah, and all that corny crap.
Oh god, do I have to keep on blabbing.
I’ve never been one to do the SOCIALLY-ACCEPTED right thing. Sure, I follow rules and am proudly a law-abiding citizen. But when it comes to Filipino values (or values, in general) I’ve always been a bit of a deviant. Fuck, why can’t I just get to the point.
I’m thinking of ending whatever D and I have. His girlfriend’s coming back to the city this week, so HE says we’ll have to plan our meet-ups now, including as to when we’ll be watching Pirates II. This naturally puts me in the sour-est and most confused mood you can imagine. :blah:
I can’t handle being the other woman. I’m a very jealous person, and I ask for undivided attention and lovin’. I cannot stand the fact that I have to share him, his time, his emotions, and his dick with a girl whom I naturally feel I am prettier, smarter and better in bed than. Because I’m arrogant like that and because he’s cheating on her. But really, if I were all that, then why is he still with her, right?
Don’t wanna be like every other girl in the world / Like every other one who wants you / ‘Cause when I see you, something inside me burns / And then I realize I wanna come first
-First, LiLo
Hi, my name's Helga Weber and welcome to my personal site. I'm 23. My first socio-political scandal will happen at the age of 35 and will include men, sushi, an African country, and lots of money. My lover is the greatest. 
Ahh it feels great to be in love, but… to be the ‘other’ woman. I guess it’s because you like him so much you can hang on. Although I broke up with my high school sweetheart 2,5 years ago (after 2,5 years), we’re STILL seeing eachother. I know at a certain time we have to move on, but somehow we can’t let go. We’ve tried dating other people, but I have told him if he’s getting close with another girl ‘it’ will be over between us ;) I think I will never be able to accept I have to share someone I give myself to for 100% . I hope your relationship with D will end well and you will be the only one in his life. Being 2nd sucks big time for sure :(
Ending your relationship with D will be the best thing to do.
Well, move on! :)
It’s not a matter of doing the ’socially acceptable’ thing, it’s that you should do what’s best for yourself. Which isn’t sneaking around getting leftovers from D on the side, because you deserve more than being forced to take his scraps of attention and having to deal with the emotional ’stress’ of being the other woman. And you asked the big question: why is he still with her? If he was really that into you, wouldn’t he dump his girlfriend and take the chance with be with you openly? Silly boy, one day he will look back and kick himself because Helgrrr was the best he ever had. ;)
:( End it! It’s the best
i’m not saying it would be easy ending it up with him but it’s the right thing to do. i mean not to hurt yourself more. that’s emotional torture!
you could be happy with someone else. i know you’ll definitely find another guy. you wouldn’t have hard time with it.
helga, to be honest, everyone in the block is kinda disappointed not because you are the “other woman” but because you treat yourself like a goddamn damsel in distress, and it is distressing to see you go gaga over a guy who cannot ot would not, for some reason, fight for you.
hey there! thanks for visitng my site.. ^_^
i couldnt comment on your latest post so i thought i’d just post here.. anyways, whatever u do, i hope u do it good. hehe..
care for a l/e? ^_^
i feel like you know what you want (and should? perhaps) do. think about it. then act.
personally, i agree with everything you said (esp the last paragraph). this D is being selfish. he wants two of you at the same time.
if i were you, id make him choose. if he doesnt choose (or he chooses the other girl), then he’s totally not worth it.
i think you knew all this but chose to be blindsided to it because you like him so much. like i’ve said in my own blog — the only person you end up listening to is yourself sometimes, and that’s why i know no matter how much the rest of us say “you don’t deserve this!” or “it isn’t right!”, you will still do what will make you think makes you happy or at least temporarily happy.
i hope you do the right thing, which is obvious to the rest of us, hehe.. and that’s because we only want to see you happy too. ♥
i’ll lend you my pliers so you can cut his braces, let’s put his cuteness into test…YUNG BAKULAW NA YON!!! honestly, roel and i are getting jealous with mc. D. Because we, too, are jealous people (like that..) and we want undivided attention from heLLguh…Tara Lets! PIRATES!
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