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Helga Weber Used to Be Ugly!

Being the vain creature that I am, I have always liked taking photos of myself but only until recently (when I started my Project 365) did I learn to stop making stupid faces at the camera (always scrunching my face in an attempt to wink, doing the Zoolander pout which was really big when I was in college, the kawaii sign, covering my mouth with my hand to pretend I was shocked etc etc). Reviewing my photos, I noticed that I always shot from the top, making my forehead look like an inflated balloon. I also had this very annoying cutesy smile that made me look like a bunny. I truly do not know what I was thinking.

I have this habit of online spring cleaning: every few months or so, I go through the archives of active online accounts and privatize possibly incriminating and/or embarrassing entries or photos. I did it to my old Livejournal (just in case there are people wondering where the juicy selloutgirl entries are), my Multiply, and even my Flickr. Good move, really, because good lord, I used to be really really ugly (by my own standards and compared to how I look now, mind you). Someone tweeted me a while ago saying that he scanned my Project 365 and noticed that I’ve changed since Day One, that I’ve bloomed. That prompted me to dig through my Photobucket and Multiply and sweet Jesus, I looked really lulzy. I’m glad I grew up (heh). I picked out some photos to show you guys, take a look!

Ugly Helga

1: October 2004. I know I look okayish there so I had to stick it in, heh.
2: November 2004. LOOK AT US, WE’RE SO COOL, doing the kawaii sign with a jeepney behind us. College best buds and I on our way to Anilao for the weekend and we saw the DLSU-Lipa building so we had to make like non-Japanese looking Japanese tourists.
3: November 2004. Ew. An example of shooting from the top (and the side) with a constipated smile. A pimple on the nose, too!
4: December 2004. Same constipated smile, kawaii sign.

Ugly Helga

1: All January 2005. Christin’ Christ, look at me, pretending to be a goddamn fish.
2: Meh. My face looks squished.
3: Nevermind that I look drunk or slightly drugged, the worst part here is that I was with three of my beautiful friends at a house party. No wonder I had to settle for an ugly boyfriend when I was in college— I was ugly, too, lulz.
4: I am so badass blowing cigarette smoke woohoo =/

Ugly Helga

1: April 2005. When.will.she.ever.stop.with.the.kawaii.sign.
2: I honestly thought this was a cute picture of me back in 2005 =/
3: I want to punch myself in the lips.
4: What’s sad is that I still look like this sometimes lolllll.

Ugly Helga


Ugly Helga


The boyfriend told me not to post too many ugly photos because he might get turned off and I don’t want to find myself suddenly single and heartbroken because the ~*~L0v3 oF mY LiFe~*~ suddenly deemed me unworthy of being his better half (note to boyfriend: sorry, our future kids— having half my genes— will have to go through the same awkward phase I we went through hrhr. I hope they don’t hate us =/) so I’ll stop with the ugly pictures now. To end this entry, let me show you the way I used to Photoshop (complete with stupid, embarrasing text):

Ugly Helga

LOLLLL I’m such an artiste.

To really end this entry, here’s a recent photo of me:

Cute Helga lolz

Bitchiz, I’m cute.

PS: I’m not saying that I no longer have (current) ugly photos of me because I still do (goddamnit, I still do).

PPS: By the way, none of you are allowed to call me ugly.

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  • Reply kenna November 21, 2009 at 5:41 pm

    Same habit. Good for you, that you can hide them. I have this account I thought I deleted and came across one day, contacted admin etc figured nobody will search for it, and one day my officemates googled my name and it came out.. disgusting. FML

    • Reply Helga November 21, 2009 at 5:43 pm

      OMG hahahahaha good thing most of my old photobucket accounts’s usernames are nowhere near the usernames I use now + they’re password-protected. I doubt anyone will try to hack into them just for ugly photos of me!

  • Reply kenna November 21, 2009 at 5:43 pm

    BTW some of the photos aren’t bad comeon… shot from the top ain’t right, learned that from you.

  • Reply Carina November 21, 2009 at 5:44 pm

    LOL. Entry sufficiently enjoyed.

    Stay cute, cuteface!

  • Reply Noelle De Guzman November 21, 2009 at 5:45 pm

    I have ugly pictures too. But I don’t update them, and yay me, I don’t have fans who go through my Flickr stream. LOL

  • Reply Atomic November 21, 2009 at 5:49 pm


  • Reply jess November 21, 2009 at 6:40 pm

    Its okay, everybody has pictures like these in their closet. Your children, my children, our children’s children will all go through the phase where you make retarded faces and attempt to record it because you think you look cute.

    I will never give up the peace sign, though. Because the peace sign *IS* kawaii, damn you.

  • Reply niki November 21, 2009 at 6:41 pm

    I can only cringe at the thought of my old photos (and some of my present photos).

    And oh Helga, I am loving your layout! (yes I haven’t been around mas nadalas na sa tumblr haha) I wish I can change my boring blog layout to sumthing awesome like this gah.

  • Reply Dien November 21, 2009 at 9:11 pm

    Whoa. What a revelation. What’s important is now, and you look fab. ;)

  • Reply mickay November 21, 2009 at 9:17 pm

    hey i noticed fr your old photos to your new one your nose seems to be more flatter back then but now its longer. Did u get your nose done? i dont mean this in a bad way i just thot wow it looks good. If you didnt im sorry that i asked your very lucky to have develop naturally.

    • Reply Helga November 22, 2009 at 1:48 am

      Bahahahahaha, I’m plastic-free!

      Here’s a funny story: my nose was really flat (I inherited my mom’s) so when I was a widdle girl (like 4 or 5), my dad would put a clothespin on it to shape my nose. I did it every now and then until highschool, I believe.

  • Reply Tracy November 21, 2009 at 9:18 pm

    Used to be?? :P
    Hot Humperella

  • Reply sara November 21, 2009 at 9:22 pm

    no matter how ugly you see yourself in these old photos, I think the important thing is that you look like you’re enjoying yourself in those moments. I guess we all have our own phases like this. :p

  • Reply SESE November 21, 2009 at 9:26 pm

    nah. not ugly at all!

  • Reply Gel November 22, 2009 at 12:55 am

    BLOOMING~!! Hahaha. Congrats, Helga :P

  • Reply nix November 22, 2009 at 10:03 pm

    hahaha! i feel so guilty. I still do funny faces. stopped the angling though.

    they’re not all ugly. the guy is right, you bloomed. maybe that’s why you think you were ugly.

  • Reply Jayrin November 22, 2009 at 10:45 pm

    you are so brave to make this entry! haha! i think we all went/going through(?) our ugly phase!

  • Reply AlohaPenny November 23, 2009 at 9:03 pm


  • Reply mikey? November 24, 2009 at 10:37 am

    you blogged about my comment huh? hehe told you it was true

  • Reply mikey? November 24, 2009 at 10:43 am

    @helgatheweber your look, youve bloomed
    2:27 PM Nov 10th from web in reply to helgatheweber

    @mikesaba8 Not quite sure what that’s supposed to mean
    2:13 PM Nov 10th from Echofon in reply to mikesaba8

    @helgatheweber ive scanned your flickr and boy youve changed.
    2:03 PM Nov 10th from web

  • Reply Angie November 25, 2009 at 6:41 pm

    Not ugly at all but then I must admit your looks do change a lot.

  • Reply Kevin November 26, 2009 at 12:19 pm

    FUNNEH THAT PIC WITH I want to be someone else or I’ll explode. It’s EMOhelga.

  • Reply buccino December 2, 2009 at 4:05 pm

    hahak. bejeeezeers. what would you have looked like when you were 10, or thirteeen?

    • Reply Helga December 4, 2009 at 9:43 pm


  • Reply Cesar Noel December 7, 2009 at 1:45 pm

    You looked like Kitchie Nadal on some of your pix here :D

  • Reply Prakash Daniel February 18, 2010 at 4:18 pm

    Dear Helga,

    I am so glad that I found ur blog, I have been a big fan of ur photography since I started following you on flickr,keep up the good work and I think you are pretty no matter wat yeah….

    take care and have a nice day then.

    -Prakash Daniel

    add me on FB at

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