In less than a month (twenty-six days, to be exact), I turn 25. I must admit: it’s a little frightening. For reasons I no longer remember that are too stupid and embarrassing to share, I used to look forward to turning a year older. …All right all right, I will tell you why: once upon a time (meaning, back in college aka when I didn’t know better), there was this guy. He was maybe five or six years my senior and— not to bore you with old drama— he made me feel inadequate for being young(er). That whole thing with guy didn’t work out (obviously and thank gawd) and now I am in a *sparkle* relationship *sparkle* with a guy who is twelve years older than me and he makes me feel like the most special kitty in the world.
SO I AM TURNING 25 and I am feeling… the age. At 25, I can no longer join beauty contests (I’m not saying that I can or will) or audition for certain things (last week, I found myself outside a band rehearsal studio at Annapolis in Cubao. There was a sign looking for female band members within the 18-24 age range) or qualify for certain jobs (uh, receptionist? Secretary? Oh, what do I know). These are the unimportant things that send me into little fits of internal panic. How very unnecessary.
Now as much as I would like to expound on this fear and talk about my feelings! my emotions! mah h0pez & mah dreamz!, I’d rather take the ditzy route and list down a bunch of crap I feel I would need “to give meaning to my 25 years of existence” aka STUFF HELGA WANTS (and will probably get for herself) FOR HER BIRTHDAY. No, lots of beer and lots of vodka are not in the list; what am I, in high school?
The list (25 for 25):
1. Crest Whitestrips (Classic or Pro). I’m all out and I keep worrying my teeth are going to turn a disgusting shade of yellow.
2. Roman candles
3. A blonde wig
4. A fisheye lens attachment
5. Two or three (or more!) new pairs of shoes
6. Chocolate chip oatmeal cookies
7. Nars Orgasm
8. Mac Viva Glam Gaga
9. Cake!
10. More non-prescription, hipster glasses
11. A Hannah Montana sleeping shirt
12. A jump rope
13. A yoga mat
14. White retro roller skates
15. Pink laces for #14
16. A kitty mask
17. Pancakes!
18. All of John Lloyd’s Greenwich commercials in my iPod
19. A second tattoo
20. Best term life insurance quote. LOLQUE.
21. Vintage-cut/retro-cut bathing suit
22. Flowers
23. Floral rubber boots
24. White lace tights
25. A bowler hat
Next year, I propose that I drink every day for the entire month of May.
Hi, I'm Helga Weber and welcome to my personal site. I'm 25 and in the process of learning how to make adventurous life choices. I dislike old people but I love grandma clothes. My goal in life is to build a ball pit right next to my bed. Currently searching for the perfect house coat. My lover is the greatest. 
“Next year, I propose that I drink every day for the entire month of May.”
I like.
BTW, do you know where I can get Crest whitestrips here?
And *sparkles* happy birthday *sparkles*.
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May 5th, 2010 at 6:53 pm
Ebay!
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Janylins!!!!! :)
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I just turned 24 on May 1st….we’re definitely in our mid-20s and I’m feeling the pains. heh
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Happy Early Birthday! Yes, when I turned 25 I felt like I hadn’t done half the things I should have by that age. Hopefully before I turn 26 I’ll get at some of those things done. :D I just want to the next few years before 30 to go by really slowly.
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For some reason I thought you were older than me…I turned 25 in March and it does suck. I don’t feel 25 and all my customers at work are always like “zomg you’re 25—you look 18!” I know looking younger is supposed to be a good thing but I find it extremely annoying. Maybe because I hear about it EVERYDAY.
I love your list. And great shoooes.
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I love your shoes!! Are they Zara?
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I’m turning 25 this year too :(
Cute shoes!!
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I’m also turning 25 this year… and I am still dependent. haha!
Happy birthday in advance, Helga!
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Still very hot. Good job, Helga. Advance.
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Turned 22 this year..and I’m on my last year of college…kinda want this to end already really. Hehe!
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Happy Birthday in Advance. Anyway, I totally love your photos :> Its so cool.
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Happy late birthday!…or early birthday?
Blah! Happy birthday anyway!
I can understand that you’re scared. I turned 22 last year and already, it’s scaring me a little, so I can’t imagine how I’d feel once I turn 25.
Ok…that probably didn’t make you feel any better.
Glad to hear that you’re in a nice, sparkley relationship with your MAN. My current boyfriend is also a biT older than me, by 10-ll years, and it’s been pretty good so far.
Nice to see you posting!
Btw
Your photos give me amazing helgasmz.
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Happy Birthday! I am so not ready to turn 25. I will be turning 25 in November.
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