It has been a hectic week (and by hectic, I mean playing Lucky Train in between “creative” breaks from work) but I cannot not post this entry! As I mentioned in my previous blog entry, I modeled gorgeous gorgeous GORGEOUS! lingerie for House of Vanita almost a week ago. It was a last-minute decision, taking Lauren‘s spot as she had to back out a few days before the show. Truth be told, I almost didn’t do it.
You see, when I first got the email/invitation to model for them last August, I thought about it for a day and decided it wasn’t for me. Weird, I know, since I’m always parading around the internets in my underwear,
anyway. Ramp and IRL is different from photos, though; in photos, I can find flattering angles and suck in my stomach and have control over what I show to the world. I also have a myriad of insecurities (I am never skinny enough!!!) and worries (er, unflattering angles, of which I have a lot). So I ignored the email and forgot about it until Lauren asked me early last week if I could do it.
Once again, I gave myself a day to think before deciding to do it. To quote Hilary Duff– “Why not?” After all, I’m not getting any younger and I’ll try anything once. My boyfriend had his reservations and asked if I really wanted such an ostentatious debut into modeling. I wouldn’t go as far as calling this a ~once in a lifetime opportunity~ but bobdamn, I’d be a bucket of regret if I didn’t do it… nevermind that I had no time to prepare aka starve myself to cokewhore proportions.
I still don’t have photos from the event itself but here are some from before and after the show (and few during, taken from Tin‘s camera):
They fed us pizza during rehearsals aka the night before the show.
Racks and racks of pretty lingerie and swimsuits.
Vicky, waiting for Jules to work on her hair.
Henzel on the hula hoop, obvs.
Alex, who is paper thin! Much like Henzel lol.
I lovelovelove this swimsuit. It’s my favorite outfit from that night. I plan on getting two of the five sets I modeled that night. Gorgeous makeup by Ana Isip.
My tube of party poppers was a dud.
I wish I took more photos. I was too busy worrying about my body, worrying about the show, worrying about getting thirsty, worrying about vomiting all over the place (I seriously thought I was going to hurl during the first two outfit changes!), etc.
I had a blast! My body is still far from perfect and I don’t think I’ll ever be completely happy with it until I am thin and toned. I’ll get (back) there one day.