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New Tattoo: Saudade

If you follow me on Twitter or Tumblr, you probably know I got a new tattoo (my third) last Friday. I’ve been anxious to post photos except I injured my back that same night and have been stuck at home, unable to move properly, since Saturday morning. I am terribly bored and have sort of quit smoking (so I’ve been looking browsing the internets for the best electronic cigarette starter kit).

It sucks.

(If you must know how in the world I got myself in this lulzy situation: I fell off a chair and landed smack on my back. I must have tried to break the fall with my left arm because I ended up with a swollen left palm and scratches on my elbow. I had to to go to the hospital to get some x-rays done and my friend, Erwin, had to push me around in a wheelchair. It’s that bad. I haven’t even been able to go back for my x-ray results seeing that walking hurts.)

It’s really no fun and I am hoping this injury isn’t permanent.

Anyway, here are photos of my new tattoo. A warning: my skin doesn’t look nice. I couldn’t find my bottle of fragrance-free lotion so my skin is extra dry (I also haven’t been able to shave my legs because I can’t bend forward yet). I use Drapolene (diaper rash cream) to ease the itchiness and it does wonders.

Saudade tattoo

BLOODY! This was really painful. I’m not sure if it was because the tattoo artist had a heavy hand but I was told that calf tattoos really do hurt, even more than shin tattoos? Thanks to Chui for this photo.

YES, I KNOW MY SKIN LOOKS GROSS. I cannot wait for it to fully heal so I can start using lotion again.

Saudade tattoo

Saudade tattoo

Saudade tattoo

Saudade tattoo

Saudade tattoo

The font I used is Aphrodite Pro (combined two different styles) and I added the leaves because I thought it looked pretty. I chose the location to cover a scar I’ve had since high school (from a roller blading incident). If you notice, there is another scar right above it; I got that from backing up on a hot flat iron that was on the floor (also from when I was in high school). Before getting this tattoo, I planned on covering up that scar, too; now I’m not so sure.

Saudade tattoo

Saudade (if you’re too lazy to google) is a Portuguese word and is one of the hardest words to translate into the English language. Put simply, it means nostalgic longing. According to Wikipedia, it means:

a deep emotional state of nostalgic longing for something or someone that one was fond of and which is lost. It often carries a fatalist tone and a repressed knowledge that the object of longing might really never return.

Saudade has been described as a “vague and constant desire for something that does not and probably cannot exist … a turning towards the past or towards the future”. A stronger form of saudade may be felt towards people and things whose whereabouts are unknown, such as a lost lover, or a family member who has gone missing. It may also be translated as a deep longing or yearning for something which does not exist or is unattainable.

Saudade was once described as “the love that remains” or “the love that stays” after someone is gone. Saudade is the recollection of feelings, experiences, places or events that once brought excitement, pleasure, well-being, which now triggers the senses and makes one live again. It can be described as an emptiness, like someone (e.g., one’s children, parents, sibling, grandparents, friends) or something (e.g., places, pets, things one used to do in childhood, or other activities performed in the past) that should be there in a particular moment is missing, and the individual feels this absence.

It’s a beautiful word, isn’t it? You can hear how it’s pronounced on Forvo.

And here is a photo of my right calf, pre-tattoo:

leg scars

And my outfit last Friday lol:

leg scars

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  • Reply Sherica January 12, 2011 at 7:47 pm

    OMG your new tattoo! This has got to be my favorite out of the three you have! The meaning of the word is beautiful as well! <3. The pain was worth it!

  • Reply Carina January 12, 2011 at 7:48 pm

    Pretty! Hope you get better, though!

  • Reply Len January 12, 2011 at 8:11 pm

    What a yummy word! I want to use it for my restaurant name someday. :3

    AND… I hope you get well soon, Helga!! ANDDDDDDDDDDDD seems like you lost weight??? :)

  • Reply mariahirish January 12, 2011 at 8:12 pm

    it’s beautiful!

  • Reply ANGIE January 12, 2011 at 8:51 pm

    WOW! you already got your third and i still have none, when will i ever have the courage to finally get one.

    what a beautiful word you got. the pain is all worth it.

    get well soon.

  • Reply Edil January 12, 2011 at 9:09 pm


  • Reply Xyla January 12, 2011 at 10:39 pm

    I love it! My favorite among the three! Teehee. I hope you get well soon! :)

  • Reply kat January 12, 2011 at 10:46 pm

    your new tat is so nice! and it is indeed a beautiful word.

  • Reply Kenna January 13, 2011 at 12:21 am

    Get well soon! Pretty tattoo!

  • Reply Dawn January 13, 2011 at 2:31 am

    I still only have one and the next one I have will be text I think! My first is an Egyptian Ankh.

    Beautiful type :)

  • Reply Carlos Shibata January 13, 2011 at 4:23 am

    Hi, I’m a Brazilian guy.
    Saudade basically means for example.
    When you have someone who travel for a distant place, or someone who you like dead, or you lose some you like. Saudade is a feeling you feel when you’re in one of these situations or others like it.

    I follow your site, especially your photos on Flickr. Congratulations

  • Reply Carlos Shibata January 13, 2011 at 4:26 am

    Forgot to say …. It’s a feeling of desire of people wanting to come back unforgettable moments, situations that has passed.

  • Reply Ivy January 13, 2011 at 10:08 am

    Awesome tattoo, Helga! I’ve always wanted one, but I know I cannot handle the pain well. I’m a crybaby so getting a tattoo is going to be out of the question.

  • Reply Janine January 13, 2011 at 1:35 pm

    I love everything about this.

  • Reply Crystal January 13, 2011 at 2:26 pm

    Oh wow, I love it. It looks like you used lighting in your outfit photo!

  • Reply Sofia January 18, 2011 at 2:35 pm

    Wow! I super love your tattoo and I fell in love with saudade too! I wanna have it tattooed on me too! but I’m scared of the pain, so i’d probably won’t get it..but, i really love your tattoo.. =D

  • Reply jessiefish January 25, 2011 at 5:53 pm

    i love it helga!!

  • Reply Frisbee January 26, 2011 at 2:17 pm

    I was stalling on twitter trying to find something to cure my boredom – and BLAM – someone I follow tweeted this post. Now, I am not quite as bored. Thanks for posting good material. – Frisbee

  • Reply Paolo January 1, 2013 at 12:10 am

    I love the design. As a matter of fact i had an ink just the same as you have :)

  • Reply HapeyShalala June 4, 2013 at 12:12 pm

    Been wanting to have this word inked on me, too! (not on the same part tho. of course) Can i? :)

  • Reply HapeyShalala June 4, 2013 at 12:15 pm

    Been wanting to have this word inked on me, too. Just a smaller version of this and of course different part. Can i? :))

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