bits and pieces

Bits and Pieces

When I was in high school, I devoured Chicken Soup for the Soul books like crazy. Someone would bring them to class and because I didn’t have the means to buy my own, I’d have every page of every Chicken Soup book that would land on my lap photocopied.

Katsu Cafe / Coney Island x Nach-O Fast

Won two Boomerangs for my resume

Sunsets / Joeythings

Those anecdotes moved me, soft little 14-year old that I was. I remember being touched by a particular story that come dinnertime, I read it out loud to my dad. He got misty-eyed, told me he loved me, and gave me a hug. MEMORIES.

(I miss my dad.)

I don’t know when I lost the ability to feel. I am quick to dismiss and detach; it’s a strength, I suppose. But I’m at an age where the lack of real connections and of meaningful conversations leave me feeling empty. I’ve become so disgusted with emotions, regarding them as something only the weak have that I don’t allow them to exist even when I’m alone.

Last week, Joey and I were at the book store and I gravitated towards the shelf that housed the Chicken Soup for the Soul books. Did you know those things cost about PHP600??? So I grabbed a pocketbook print (it was cheaper at less than PHP400) because really, I could use some stories to open my heart and rekindle my spirit.

Or maybe emotions really are stupid.

PS: The Butt Out app says I’ve been a non-smoker for 5 days and 17 hours. I think I picked the wrong week/month to quit.

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  • Reply Kaye October 10, 2014 at 7:12 pm

    I read a lot of Chicken Soup too. I remember I’d always feel guilty for taking my parents for granted and then grateful.

  • Reply Trisha October 10, 2014 at 9:45 pm

    I lasted 5 days without smoking, too! But had withdrawals this week, so I had to reset My Quit Buddy app. :-/

    I never really got into those but I remember wanting to submit a story of my own to be included in one volume.

  • Reply Maria October 11, 2014 at 3:41 am

    Ah, those Chicken Soup for the ________ Soul books were my bread and butter in middle school. I remember tearing up many times. Reading your post, I sometimes wish I could detach from my emotions. I’m on the other spectrum from you: almost completely guided & controlled by emotions. It can be really difficult to get out of my head / emotional landscape sometimes. So I want to work on detaching my SELF from my EMOTIONS and just getting on with my day. However, it is important still to let yourself feel & revel in an emotional atmosphere. Even if it’s only while reading a heartfelt story :)

    I really enjoy your pictures in this post, so beautiful. Good luck with the smoking bit; u can do it! :B

  • Reply Krista October 11, 2014 at 9:20 am

    I realized I’ve been smoking less this past few weeks (can’t remember the last time I had a full stick), and maybe it’s one of the reasons why I’ve been so full of emotions lately. Like you, I find emotions stupid and I also think they’re for the weak, but what can we do, right? We’re only humans. I hope you feel better now, Helga.

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