They say you’re supposed to pick one word to define your year. The word I’m choosing to guide me is:
I’d like to start living simply and meaningfully this year, only paying attention to what’s important and needed.
1. De-clutter: my space, my heart, my mind, my life.
It was only mid last year when I learned to let go— of people I don’t care for, of clothes I haven’t worn in at least 6 months, of beauty products that don’t suit me, of things I no longer have any use for but held on to just in case. Throwing things away and seeing my possessions dwindle was oddly satisfying.
I’ve never been a pack rat, I just tend to be too lazy to de-clutter. My goal is to cleanse my space at least every quarter and keep it free from the unnecessary at all times.
2. Consume less.
I’m not materialistic but I’m addicted to acquiring and spending. I’m also prone to stupid impulse buys BECAUSE THEY LOOK CUTE IN PICTURES. This year, I will plan my purchases carefully, asking myself— do I really need this? I mean, I already have everything I need to live happily. Hopefully, this will lead to me contributing less waste. Also: no more buying things for the sake of Instagramming them!
3. Be debt-free by December 2015.
I was debt-free twice in my life: before I got my credit card about seven years ago, and that one time I paid off my balance in full (it was short-lived but felt wonderful). My goal is to end the year owing Citibank nothing. It’s going to be tough and I’m dreading the sacrifices I’m going to have to make but I’d really rather not have this hanging over my head when I ring in 2016!
I generally have no feelings so I kinda just get by mocking or shrugging off everything. After typing that sentence, I googled “is it possible not to have feelings” and according to the first page, I might have alexithymia or be a psychopath haha lol.
My emotional detachment (both to myself and others) troubles me sometimes because I feel like there’s something constantly lacking in my life. I’d like to try and “fix this” this year. After all, I need hugot to pay the bills!
(Also, it makes for better writing.)
(But where do I even begin? Is there an Introspection for Dummies book?)
Then I have several little goals like:
5. Figure out how to curl my hair with my Babyliss U-Styler.
6. Learn how to blend eyeshadow.
7. Be more confident.
8. Embrace my chub, but also knock off a couple of inches from my waist.
9. Remember to take my birth control on time, all the time.
10. Knit a scarf. I bought two pairs of knitting needles at the DMC Handcrafted Arts and Crafts Fair and I can’t wait to become a crazy, knitting cat lady (crazy, crocheting cat lady just doesn’t have the same ring to it).
11. Quit smoking.
I’m very hopeful.
What’s your #1 goal for 2015?