Real talk: Instagram is the bane of my existence.
Okay, I’m overreacting but I often find myself thinking: “HOW THE HECK DOES INSTAGRAM WORK?”
I’m hesitant to even publish this post because I sound like a brat thinking out loud, but what the heck.
Last year, I decided to clean up my Instagram because I came down with a nasty case of the comparesies and wanted my online life to look like all I did during the day was buy fresh flowers, drink sugary coffee, and read fashion magazines (#education). I had Instagram envy and I had it bad, and I totally embraced it. I followed all these ethereally white, bright and airy minimalistic feeds and had hopes to be just like them— no, tried to be just like them. We all know Instagram isn’t real anyway.
Ten months later, my Instagram is still far from consistent and I’m also so bored of it all. I can only take so much of the minimalist pixie dream girl aesthetic before I start hating everything muted and milky (while still trying to emulate it LOL).
Several times, I’ve come across articles titled How to develop your Instagram aesthetic or How to come up with a cohesive Instagram feed or How to take the perfect Instagram photo or How to grow your Instagram following or Instagram hashtags to get you noticed— you know the kind. At first, I lapped up these articles like a kitten does to milk because I wanted a bombass Instagram account (I mean, what else did I buy all those VSCO filters + other photo editing apps for, right???) but now I’m just kinda really sick of it already.
Why do I feel the need to define an aesthetic?
Why do I need to box myself in?
Why do I need to use the same filter/s in all my photos to form a cohesive feed (and what about all those other presets I spent money on)?
Obviously, my thirst to establish a personal brand (yuck) has led me to discontent so it’s really all on me. No one told me to follow a specific look or use Instagram in a certain way, after all. I’m still hashing out my feelings for Instagram because I know that I’m still going to keep aspiring for That Look because I do like it. I just wish this desire for a “perfect Instagram feed” didn’t bother me so much.
Does anyone get me?